Florence gained the nickname "the
lady with the lamp" as the result of her loving service to the British
wounded of the Crimean war. She was said to be seen in the dark of night,
when all others were asleep, moving from wounded solder to wounded solder to
give them aid and comfort, carrying a lamp so she could see them and they
could see her.
Choosing service over the comforts
of inherited status and wealth, Florence felt a calling from God: "God
called me in the morning and asked me, "Would I do good for Him, for Him
alone without the reputation."1 Ironically, her willingness to do
good "without the reputation" resulted in her attainment of the highest of
reputations.
I should know. I was visited
personally by "the lady with the lamp." That’s right. I have met Florence
Nightingale.
"What?" you say. "You could not
possibly have met Florence Nightingale. She died in 1910, almost 100 years
ago."
"Ah," I respond, "but wait until
you hear my story. Once you hear my story, which I shall now relate, you can
decide for yourself the truth of my testimony. You may just find that not
only have I met Florence Nightingale, but you have as well."
I met Florence Nightingale about
two years ago. The place of our meeting was a hospital in Portland, Oregon,
called Oregon Health and Science University Hospital, where I was a patient.
I had undergone surgery a day or two before to remove a cancerous tumor in
my small intestine, along with my gall bladder. Although I knew at the time
that I had, and have, other tumors in my liver that cannot be removed, the
mission of this particular surgery was only to remove the small intestine
tumor, and it was a success. Therefore I was in a hospital room recovering
my strength.
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For about 20 minutes two years ago, in a hospital
room, in the middle of the night, I was visited by "the lady with the
lamp."
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At the time of Florence’s visit, I
was only a few days into my recuperation. I was hooked up to numerous
intravenous fluid delivery devices, including one which kept me hydrated and
another that delivered a strong pain medicine that was needed because of the
12-inch-long abdominal incision that could be quite painful if I moved. I
was very weak, was not allowed to eat, and worse, I was allergic to the pain
medicine and so did not use it unless the pain was unbearable, which
sometimes it was.
Part of the regimen of recovery,
among other things, is to have a nurse—more accurately, a "CNA," which
stands for "certified nursing assistant"—to come by your bed from time to
time, day and night, take your blood pressure, take your temperature, and
perform a few other duties associated with collection and analysis of a
certain unnamed body fluid. (The patients, including me, find this humbling.
The nurses, strangely, think nothing of it).
It was somewhat unpleasant to be
visited by these nurses, because they would disrupt you if you were reading
or sleeping, force a thermometer into your mouth and a pressure cuff onto
your arm, proceed to take the readings, and usually not bother very much
with small talk. They just interrupted you, did their job, and walked away.
It was especially bad at night because sometimes—although not often—I
actually fell asleep, and I resented being awakened by them for this
seemingly meaningless routine.
Furthermore, it was especially
unpleasant to be visited by one particular nurse for a couple of reasons.
First, she obviously smoked a lot, and she always smelled very strongly of
tobacco smoke, an odor that I did not like when I was feeling well and
especially found downright repellent when I was weak, hadn’t eaten, had a
sensitive stomach, and was in pain.
Second, she was unusually rough
about her chores. She would grab my arm violently and tug it to the side of
the bed, jam on the pressure cuff, push the thermometer into my mouth, pump
the cuff so hard I thought my arm would fall off, take the reading, pull off
the cuff and pull out the thermometer, and then basically throw my arm back
onto the bed not caring where it landed.
As I said, I especially dreaded
the visits of this nurse, until that is, one night I will never forget. This
particular night I was wide awake and very cold. I was having "goose bumps"
from being so cold, and I was shivering. I was extremely fatigued, in pain,
and had a great deal of anxiety from being so cold, but also being hot at
the same time. I had a fever! Then, in the middle of my suffering, the
dreaded nurse’s assistant appeared and went through her usual
ritual—roughly, seemingly uncaringly, smelling of tobacco, and not speaking
a single word.
In spite of my dislike of her, my
suffering spurred me to tell her that I was cold and to ask meekly if she
would get me an extra blanket or so. She left my bedside without comment of
any kind, without even acknowledging my request. I thought I had been
ignored, only to find her appearing back beside me in a few minutes with a
couple of blankets fresh from being cleaned, and piping warm, either from
being just taken freshly from a dryer, or from some heater they might use
just for the purpose of warming the blankets.
She proceeded, again, without
comment or fanfare of any kind, to carefully place a blanket over my feet
and up towards my neck with almost military precision. I say "towards my
neck," instead of "to my neck" because I am very tall and the blankets are
short, so they did not reach all the way to my neck — a phenomenon that
might seem humorous to some people but that bothered me greatly, since a
person with cancer who is ill and has a fever has no sense of humor. At
least, I don’t. No matter. She noticed this and took a second blanket and
placed it at my neck "towards my feet" so that the two blankets together
reached from neck to toe and overlapped in the middle.
The warmth of the two blankets
began to chase away my coldness, but they were not enough.
So, she again left silently and
returned with more blankets, also steaming warm, which she again silently,
neatly, and I dare say lovingly layered one upon another and back
again—tucking the sides carefully under me—so that, in the end, I lay
cocooned snugly, warmly and peacefully beneath a layer of hot, freshly
laundered blankets, looking like a living mummy with only my head poking out
of the pile so I could breath. Underneath this pile of loving kindness I
found warmth, peace and sleep. The nurse’s assistant left without a word and
silently resumed her rounds.
In the morning, I awoke without a
fever, but bathed in a puddle of my own perspiration so heavy that all the
blankets, bed coverings, and my hospital gown were soaked with sweat and had
to be replaced. The night had been a turning point in my recovery, and I
longed to tell her how much she had helped me in my time of need, but she
had finished her scheduled hours for the week, and I never saw her again.
I also could not and cannot
remember her name. Since I cannot remember her name, I feared that I could
never find her to thank her. Then it hit me. I realized that I knew her
after all.
I realized that, whatever her real
name, for about 20 minutes two years ago, in a hospital room, in the middle
of the night, I was visited by "the lady with the lamp." The lamp that lit
her way, and mine, was not one of wax, or oil, but rather the light that
lights any person who serves the needy, the sick, the lame, the blind and
the poor anytime they perform such an act.
Whether she was a Christian, I do
not know. This I do know, however, that all acts of kindness come ultimately
from God, no matter who delivers them at any particular moment, be they a
monk, or a madman. James says, "Every good gift and every perfect gift is
from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not
change like shifting shadows" (James 1:17). The light she brought in her
person shone brightly on me for a moment. It enlightened me, refreshed me,
comforted me, and like a true lamp, it warmed me when I needed it most.
I decided that, whatever this
nurse’s assistant’s real name was at that time, for about 20 minutes she was
Florence Nightingale. At least she was to me.
Jesus said, "Whatever you did
[i.e., some good deed] for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you
did for me" (Matthew 25:40). It is good to hear Jesus speak on behalf of
people, like me, who have been helped.
But those who have been helped
sometimes want to persnally thank the Florence Nightingales who serve them.
Perhaps they do not know the helper’s real name. Perhaps they forget, or
maybe never see them again. Perhaps when they are helped they cannot speak,
or communicate, for they are ill or even unconscious.
It has dawned on me that I might,
by telling my story, not only give thanks to my Florence Nightingale, but
represent, humbly, everyone who has had a Florence Nightingale of their own.
So, for myself and all others who have felt the love and kindness of another
person whom they have never been able to thank, I say, "Thank you Florence
Nightingale, wherever—and whoever—you are."