he last place I wanted
to be was in another funeral procession, with my anguish laid bare in front of
everyone. I was the center of attention, but all I wanted to do was curl up in a
corner and die myself. It was too much to go through this again—first my
husband, then my only son. As we followed the funeral bier being carried through
the streets of Nain, villagers came out of their shops and homes and joined the
procession. Some were truly sympathetic. But others joined the flow of people
out of duty, as they always did. They meant well—gazing at me and shaking their
heads, they wondered what would happen to me now, with no husband, no son to
provide for me.
“It was true. I would be destitute: a victim of an
unscrupulous and uncaring system. But I no longer cared. Sobbing uncontrollably,
it was all I could do to put one foot in front of the other. Just keep going, I
told myself. Just keep walking.
“I remember that the noise of shuffling feet on the
stone streets was strangely mesmerizing, helping numb my tormented brain to the
reality of my loss. As we passed under the city gates, a man behind me gently
touched my shoulder and said, ‘Don’t cry.’ Before I could turn to see who it
was, he hurried past me. It was Jesus, the teacher from Galilee. He went right
up to the bier and laid his hand on it. I felt the crowd shrink back in shock as
they observed him ritually defile himself by touching a dead body—my son’s dead
body. Those carrying the bier came to an abrupt halt, startled that someone had
interrupted a funeral procession.
“Everyone, mourners and onlookers alike, stood
still as Jesus, visibly moved with compassion, said ‘Young man, I say to you,
get up!’ Immediately, my son sat up! I gasped. My heart stopped as I heard my
son begin to speak. Staring at everyone around him, he blurted, ‘What’s going
on?’
“My son had no idea what had happened. He thought
he had just awakened from a dream. Recognizing some friends, he asked, ‘What
happened to me?’ Stunned and speechless, his friends just stood there with their
mouths open, watching a dead person talk to them! Jesus quickly loosened the
white linen burial garments that had bound my son in death. Helping him off the
bier, he put his arm around my boy and led him to my open arms. The shocked
crowd of witnesses trembled with fear and awe, and glorified God, calling Jesus
a great prophet.
“Afterwards, I often wondered, why me? As he came
upon our sad procession that day, what compelled Jesus to dry a widow’s tears?
Had he been thinking of his own impending death, of his widowed mother and how
broken her heart would be as she watched her firstborn son die on a cross? I
remember well that even in his last agonizing moments of life, Jesus, struggling
for breath, comforted his mother, making sure she would be cared for. Maybe
that’s why his heart went out to me. I can’t say for sure. I only know that,
somehow, my pain was important to Jesus. He felt my grief, he knew my uncertain
plight, and he redeemed my life and destiny by raising my only son from the
dead.”