By
Geoffrey Miller
Recently I read a
book that challenged me, upset me and tested my attitude in a very unusual
way. A friend found the book in a thrift shop where she worked, and having a
Christian history similar to mine, she suggested I might enjoy it. It was
one of those books that comes along just when you need it most, the kind
that releases a cool breeze across your life. It filled in so many gaps that
needed filling, but it also frustrated me so much that I could have thrown
it into a river and smiled.
The church that I have belonged to
for many years was prone to doing a few doctrinal somersaults from time to
time. Minor things came and went and came again and no one was too fussed.
Then one day the church did the equivalent of a doctrinal double reverse
pike with twist. Doctrines that I considered ordained by God himself,
absolutes that were paramount to the practice of my religious life suddenly
became irrelevant. At the time "traumatic" seemed a kind word.
Eventually I came to see what the
church leaders were saying. "Jesus is the center of all things. Religious
practice cannot compete with him or substitute for him."
|
|
Time after time my eyes and then my mind were
drawn to the heavily underscored text, leading me to places I didn’t
want to go, to things I didn’t want to think about.
|
I had no disagreement with that,
so I settled down to reshaping my thinking according to the life and
teachings of our Savior Jesus Christ in the light of the new covenant.
Gradually, over a decade or so, my previous religious practices became less
important as I increasingly comprehended the fullness of Christ.
The book that caused me so much
unease dealt with those events, the whys and wherefores of it all, from an
author who was right there in the moment.
That wasn’t what upset me, though.
My problem was that a previous
reader had underlined everything he must have thought important with thick
black lines (I’m assuming it was a man, though perhaps a woman might have
used such an obtrusive pen). Besides his underlining, he had made comments
in the margins and inscribed question marks that only he understood. This
person obviously had not tasted the emotion of the moment or careered out of
control down the roller coaster of "what abouts." Their underlining was
almost detached, the kind of underlining one would do to stress an
interesting point of ancient history. It was not the heart of a person who
had experienced the joy and the sting of the journey.
Time after time my eyes and then
my mind were drawn to the heavily underscored text that sidetracked me into
someone else’s ideas and opinions, leading me to places I didn’t want to go,
to things I didn’t want to think about. This person was at a different place
from me on their spiritual journey, yet they were unknowingly forcing me to
go there, even though I felt God wanted me to be somewhere else. Somewhere
spiritually healthier for me.
I marveled at this phenomenon. It
caused me to think, perhaps I was being shown something bigger than what had
come and gone.
Haven’t I also been a line-drawer?
Haven’t I drawn my own lines under events in peoples’ lives and in the
margins of their personal stories? Indeed, how smugly I’ve highlighted
things that I thought were unusual or not quite right, things I had summed
up with a question mark snigger or a disapproving grunt. Have my whispers in
the margins drawn another person’s attention to a place he or she did not
want or need to be?
Then I thought about Christ’s
words, "Whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters
of mine, you did it for me" (Matthew 25:31–40). Jesus identifies so closely
with every person that how we treat others is how we are treating him. If I
draw lines of judgment under someone else’s imperfections, real or imagined,
I draw lines under his perfect life.
Jesus is clearly more interested
in relationships than in piety. He is not worried about how well we do
religion; he wants us to treat one another with dignity and respect. When we
love another, it is Jesus loving through us. When we are loved by someone,
it is Jesus in us receiving the love. He is both the giver and the receiver.
He is the center of all things. Religious practice cannot compete with him,
or substitute for him.
In Jesus we are free from all
marginal references, underlining, and other peoples’ interpretations of the
way our lives should progress. We are also free to let others be themselves
and enjoy their journey into Christ, no matter where they might be along the
way.
To my church I say, Thank you for having the
courage to lay everything on Christ alone and ride out the storms it
brought. And to my unknown underlining friend, Thank you for the frustration
that caused me to meditate upon the inclusive graciousness of God. I nestled
a little deeper into our Savior’s loving arms because of you.
Copyright 2010
